Friday, 30 September 2011

October Changes


So, it's October tomorrow and I have a few challenges that I want to start for the new month. September is usually a bit of a messy month of change over, starting school- which for me always means moving somewhere new, and settling back into a new routine. But I've had a few things praying on my mind and there are a few changes I want to make to my life.

1. Stop talking about my ex boyfriend
Erick and I have been broken up for two months this week, yet I still talk about him all the time. Not in a creepy way, just in a way that implies we're still together. And I know it's uncomfortable for people around me. We broke up. We're not together anymore. And I know whenever I said "oh Erick likes that" or "oh once Erick and I did this", it takes me back a little more and just makes everything harder. I am definitely going to still be thinking these things, but I think not saying them will make it easier to take thought about him away from the forefront of my mind. I am probably still going to be talking about how much I miss him and how upset I am about everything, mainly because I don't think it's healthy for me to be bottling that stuff up, but I'm going to stop talking about him like we're still together. Because as much as it sucks, we're not anymore.

2. Take up the IFB comment challenge
This is something I've wanted to do for a while. I read blogs on my iPhone and while I often mark as unread blogs I want to comment on, I often just read and move on. I would like a better relationship with my readers and other bloggers and I really think this would help. I typically leave about 5 comments a day, but I'd like to get this up to about 10. I'm hoping to start with leaving 300 comments over the month of October and seeing how I get on.

3. Learn to control my boredom, and don't waste precious time
I hate being bored. It drives me insane. I have such a low tolerance for boredom as I have the attention span of a toddler. Uni this year is hard already because I only have four hours of classes a week and have wednesday, thursday and friday off. I need to use this time productively, because I have a lot to be getting on with this year. I want to get a First and I want to work hard in my other pursuits. When I find myself feeling bored I need to find something to do, go somewhere, get a change or scenery. Because when I'm up to my eyes in work I'm going to hate myself for wasting that time.

4. Shop less, wear more
I have tried numerous times to do a shopping ban, but it doesn't work. I end up breaking it and feeling guilty. But I do need to shop less. I have at least 10 things in my wardrobe I haven't worn on my blog yet, and I need to get wearing.

5. Keep my blogging regular
I've really enjoyed having weekend features when I don't feel like taking pictures- Sunday's Week in Photos and Saturday's Weekend Remix. Do you like these features? What would you like to see more of?

6. Learn to be happy
I have been really, really down since leaving America. I don't really feel as though I can be happy not living in the States, but I know I can't think that, because the reality is, I have to stay here for at least another 9, 10 months. That's life, and I have to get on with it. I miss my ex boyfriend more than anything in the world, but I know us breaking up was for the best right now. I miss my friends at uni and I find my new life here strange and different, but I have to accept that this is what it is and make the most of it. I have always been one of those people who really has to try to be happy, it doesn't just come to me. But I'm fed up of being sad and need to make the most of what I have. And if I can't be truly happy right now, then I need to focus on working hard on my degree, saving up money and working on my writing so one day I can move back to America and find a job I love.

Indian Summer



Sigh. At 17.41 my day can finally start. Since Wednesday I've been trying to send some books back that I bought for a class that I ended up being unable to take, and basically, the collection guy (or girl) didn't turn up on Wednesday, when I spent the whole day at home waiting and/or ensuring someone was at home, and when I called yesterday they assured me someone would be here today before 5. Finally, during my second phonecall of complaint the doorbell went. Going outside to take these photos was the only time I've been outside all day so far.




As you might know if you either live in the UK or read a few other British style blogs, it's been insanely hot here the last few days. Okay, well, insanely hot by my standards. I hate the heat. This is why I went to Minnesota instead of Alabama. I would rather deal with a six-month-long winter than a six-month-long summer. I also find it really hard to dress nicely in hot weather. For me, creative dressing is all about layers. Another thing is, I've been preferring to go tights-less recently and I don't like wearing anything too short without tights, which limits me again. So I decided to think back to outfits I didn't manage to wear while it was still warm and this came to me. Yep, that orange skirt again. This top I've had forever, I don't even remember buying it. It's also a lot more maroon-y than it seems on these pictures. Naturally, I can't resist leopard accessories. I love these shoes but as I mentioned on Tuesday, they're a little bit small. I decided to try to stretch them out today by wearing them around the house all day in big, thick socks. I think it worked- they feel a lot more comfortable- but I think I might try the old newspaper trick too.



orange skirt- urban outfitters
purple top- topshop
leopard belt- new look
leopard flats- c/o zalando


I think we're going out tonight, which should be fun. Staying at home has been okay today but I'm excited to go out. I don't go out very much and I get bored of it really easily. I really have to like the music and I have to be awake enough so that I don't get tired. My perfect night would involve lots of cheesy music, pop punk, dancing, pain-free heels, a hot dress and bed before 2. I'm working tomorrow night too so I already get my one late night a week!!


Well I'm going to start making some tea (I'm running out of broccoli and carrots- my tea staples- so I'm gonna have to be creative. Or walk to Tesco. My plan to walk to Aldi has been thwarted by waiting in all day. I can now no longer be bothered), listen to Taking Back Sunday, contemplate a quick nap and start getting ready. I have a few posts prepared for the weekend, but I'll be back for outfit photos on Monday.
Have a fab weekend :]]

Charlotte xxx

edit: Oh and I forgot to mention, I found out today that I was featured over at the Vedette blog. They did an awesome little feature on me that you should check out.

Thursday, 29 September 2011

Too hot to blog

Today was too hot to take pictures of myself. So I took pictures of everything else I did.
Today I...

Drank tea from my favourite mug. I have a thing about tea in my favourite mugs. Erick bought me THE BEST panda mug for valentines day and I would ONLY drink my tea from my panda mug. That was, until I knocked it off the draining board one day. And cried for hours.

Thanked my former self for putting all my bobby pins back on the cardboard holder.

Wore this dress for the millionth time. Everything in my wardrobe felt too heavy and sticky today. This dress is so light- perfect for a hot day.

Admired my gorgeous spotty bag.

Did a beehive again. It's a bit messy at the back though- need to work on that.

Read Freud and drunk more tea

Bought new wedge boots.

Got dressed to go to Zumba and then found out the class was fully booked.

Came home and watched Russell Brand instead

And painted my nails orange!!

Promise I'll bear the heat tomorrow (it's meant to be even hotter, urgh) for pictures.
Have a great day!!

Charlotte x

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

Simple

 



If you follow me on twitter (@gnd_fashion) you'll know that I was freaking out yesterday because England was hit with a heat wave today and I have absolutely no idea how to dress for this kind of weather. It has been absolutely boiling today. I hate hot weather. I have no idea what to wear.




I've had this dress for ages but I've not worn it properly yet. I realised it is such a year-round dress. I'm really excited to layer over it when it gets colder. But today I just wanted to throw on something comfy and simple. Not the most exciting outfit in the world. I'm not mad on these photos. I think this dress needs some more interesting touches. It was just too hot for me to care today.




If you are really, really observant you might notice that I am not wearing tights. I was this morning, but they were really laddered and my shoes were just a little bit small and were rubbing a bit, so I took them off in the toilets and threw them away. That's a pretty bold move for me!! I never get my legs out without tights and I felt a little nervous and uncomfortable, but strangely liberated.


mustard dress- boohoo
leopard shoes- c/o zalando
mustard belt- dorothy perkins
owl necklace- new look

 

Okay, I'd better go get on with the million things I had planned to do today.
Have a great evening,

Charlotte x

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

One of those days




Nothing especially bad has happened today, it's just one of those days. Here are some reasons why.
1. 9am class
2. Being sat at the back of said 9am class when the teacher was picking groups for presentations. I like to get mine done early to get it out of the way- I now have presentations for both my classes in week 9
3. Not being sure if I like my hair like this
4. Not liking my outfit
5. Freaking out about my dissertations and all the other essays I have to do
6. And also being very, very overwhelmed by how much time I have (I had had all my classes for the week by 10am today)
7. Not being able to go the gym or swimming as I don't have my trainers or swimming costume with me, and  not starting dance classes til next week (I feel so much better when I work out!!)
8. Realising at 12.30pm that the post office collection place closes at 12.30pm
9. Just wanting to curl up and read Look magazine, and then going to 5 different shops, none of which had said magazine
10. Going to take pictures and first of all, have little kids stare and laugh at me and then getting dangerously close to a fight between a guy in an Asda delivery truck and a woman trying to get down the alley in her car, which he was blocking.
11. Indoor photos
12. Being unable to turn the flash off my iPhone, doing a full restore and finding the light still on, booking a genius appointment for in an hour's time and then realising the light is now off. And then trying it again and finding yep, it's back.
13. Finding a picture or a mention of Erick pretty much every morning on my Facebook newsfeed. And still missing him so much it makes me feel sick.
14. Missing being able to call my parents because they're in Spain
15. Just generally feeling rubbish

I know these are all pathetic little trivial problems but it's just led me to feel kinda down. I'm sorry, I know this is super-self indulgent, but sometimes you just need somewhere to vent, right? Let's move on and discuss my outfit. And my hair.

edit: I just got back from the Apple store, where they gave me a new iPhone and I got a copy of Look magazine. Admittedly, my phone is still syncing so we're not in the clear yet...





So, hair first. I followed Lauren's tutorial, but it's a bit messy because it was my first time. What do you think? I think it actually looks better in these pictures than in real life, but it was a good thing to do with my hair on a non-washing day. I think I'll keep practicing it.
I'm not mad on this outfit, I realised it was October this weekend and I'd only done two remixes with this skirt- my remix item of the month- so I had to squeeze one in before then. I also, as I said, had a 9am class today (how did I used to cope with 8am classes in Duluth?!) so I didn't really have a chance to change once I'd gotten dressed. My boobs also keep falling out of this shirt!!


rust blouse- c/o Own the Runway
polka dot skirt- thrifted
ballet flats- Dorothy Perkins


I think my problem today was that I got myself really burnt -out early in the day. I'd probably only had an hour break between 9 and 3 and then I just felt exhausted and overwhelmed. And because of this I've basically done nothing all afternoon. I think I need to pace myself throughout the day and take regular breaks. I'm just finding it really hard to deal with a lack of routine and schedule. I'm hoping as time goes on I'll organise all the free time I have. I do have a lot to do but I need focus!!


I should go do some reading but I think I'm just going to call my parents, watch this Gok Wan programme and have an early night. I can't see myself achieving anything more productive tonight so I'll get up early tomorrow!!

Have a lovely evening!!

Charlotte xxx

Monday, 26 September 2011

Quotes on Change




Today's post is entitled "quotes on change". Why? Because that was what I googled in order to find a title for this post. As you might have guessed, many a wise man (or woman) has spoken of change, so I was inundated with results. But then I couldn't decide if a quote on change was a little too cheesy as a blog post title. And I also couldn't pick one. I did like this one though:
"If we don't change, we don't grow. And if we don't grow, we aren't really living."
Cool, huh? And I read another one about butterflies, similar to my favourite quote- "Just when the caterpillar thought it was the end of the world, it became a butterfly." I'd love to get a tattoo of a butterfly to commemorate that quote, but my Mum would kill me (Hi Mum!). I'd love to get something like that though. A reminder to stay strong. I've been looking for a pretty bracelet or something that says "be strong" or something similar, for those moments of weakness when I need a reminder that I'm doing okay. I've seen a couple that I like, but I just need to pick one.

EDIT: As I went through and re-read this, I found this bracelet. I might have to buy this or ask for it for Christmas. Or parents, if you're reading this, this would be an amazing thing to get through my letter box. Hint.




Today's post is on change for several reasons. One, slightly less philosophical reason, is because as you see, I am yet again wearing pants. Maroon pants, indeed, but pants. I worked out that in the last 12 days I have worn jeans or pants 7 times. That may not sound significant to you, but it is to me. It's an indicator of some change, some evolution, some growth in my life. I don't wear pants. Or at least, I didn't used to. Pants and jeans weren't really me. I've always been a dresses and skirts and shorts girls. I own jeans but I tend to only wear them on lazy days and when I don't feel inspired. In fact, I think there are only maybe 6 or 7 outfit posts of me wearing jeans, including my five-day jeans challenge back in February last year. I used to be able to list the number of times Erick had seen me in jeans (weirdly, the first time he met me I was wearing jeans and it always really bothered me because that wasn't very "me"). But I'm kinda okay with it. Sure, jeans and pants (these in particular, actually) make my ass and thighs look huge, but who cares? I don't. I'm starting to feel a change and really moving towards pants. I don't know what this means, it probably doesn't mean anything, but it's a change.




And other change. Bigger, more significant change. Today was my first day back in classes at Birmingham. Today was, at Birmingham at least, my last first day of school. Being back here is strange. I miss my year abroad like a limb. I miss America so much it hurts. But I'm determined to embrace the time I have left here. I made friends with a girl in my class today and at work on Saturday I chatted with some of the new girls. I can't live my life in the past. I have to move forward. My classes this semester seem really interesting. I'm taking Contemporary American Literature, which is full of post-modernism which I adore, and Literature, Sexuality and The Body. Lit Sex and the Body sounds like it's going to be really, really hard work but also very, very rewarding. I'm only in 4 hours a week (my week is done by 11am Tuesday) so I have a lot of free time to really get my arse in gear with my work. I'm excited. As I've said before, time for a new start. Being back at uni is frustrating because I feel as though I'm "done". I've done three years of uni. I've done Birmingham. I've done essays and studying and hours in the library. But at the same time, this is my last year to do this. Change is a fickle friend.


maroon trousers- ASOS
beige jumper- New Look
plaid shirt- New Look
beige oxfords- New Look


Okay well now we've established that I'm wearing pants, I should probably discuss my outfit!! I was actually inspired by the model on ASOS when I ordered the trousers!! And also by myself. This outfit is incredibly similar to Friday's outfit. I don't normally wear a lot of plaid, but it's all I want to wear at the moment. It's just so cosy and autumnal looking. I also love the new preppy trend and I think this really encompasses that. I've never really gone for androgyny- I am far too curvy to pull off boyish shapes- but I love the fact that this outfit could easily be worn by a guy too!!
Oh also, if there was an award for "most mismatched nails to outfit" I would win. Super-preppy outfit, garish, pink leopard print nails.

I remember last time I had writing on my hand, people kept asking me what it said. Today it says "Hairspray" and "selotape". I'm forgetful.

Oh and another "change" in my life- I am now the Motel Student Ambassador for the University of Birmingham. Yay!! I entered the competition last week and they loved my entry and gave me the job!! I can't wait to start. Lots of writing, lots of street style, lots of fun!!

Well, I'm off for a curry with my housemates to celebrate mine and Briony's first day of class. AKA, any excuse for a curry!!

Have a great evening!!

Charlotte xxx