To cut a long story short, I've experienced a lot of negativity the last few days and it was really getting my down about myself. The way I looked, the way I was, the way I portrayed myself. This morning I didn't like what I was wearing and felt generally kinda down about myself. I'd planned to go home and just throw some jeans on after the gym, as I was spending the day on homework anyway.
Then I decided no. I won't let this get to me. So I came home from the gym, put on a dress, lipstick and heels and felt strong and confident enough to face the world. I am no longer going to listen to the negativity. As someone pointed out, I do have a problem in lacking perspective. I get so involved in one tiny problem or issue that I forget about all the wonderful aspects of my life. My life is amazing, and sometimes I just need a reminder of that. And today was one of those days. I have a wonderful life here. I have amazing friends and the best parents anyone could ask for, and I'm in a relationship that constantly makes me happy. Sure, shit happens, but I have some amazing people to support me when it does, and I know I can depend on myself. I shouldn't need validation from anyone but myself, and from now on, I'm going to try not to.
Okay, rant over. Here's what I wore today, anyway. As I said, it wasn't what I wore this morning (I was remixing a Lovely Ones piece but it didn't quite go as I'd planned) but it made me feel happy. This is one of my birthday dresses I bought myself from my parents. Its the Modcloth Flowers of Romance dress and it's pretty. One of my 22 Things to do Before I'm 22 (which I will put up soon!!) is to have one day a week to wear heels. I really want to get used to wearing them because I love heels. I've had so many compliments on them too!! Okay, nothing much left to say, so here's what I wore today.
leather jacket- H&M
shoes- dorothy perkins
Have a great day!
edit: also, I deleted my Tumblr account. I wrote a post saying I was deleting it and then realised, duh, no-one would read it because I was deleting my account. Here is what I said.
i realised I don’t need this.
i’ve saved any post I might want to look back on.
i’m deleting my tumblr.
i might come back, but if I will it will be purely related to my blog.
i don’t like who i’ve become on here and i think it’s only going to get worse.
if you want me, you can find me at my blog.
i’m buying a journal, and keeping the rest to myself.
thanks to all the people who have been there, i really appreciate it.
but it’s just not worth it.
Thanks to all of you who were supportive but it wasn't having a positive influence on my life and I realised I didn't need the negativity. I have no regrets. I'll let you all know if I start up again.