Sunday, 7 August 2011

I don't know how to tell you all this, mainly because I haven't really accepted it myself, but yesterday Erick and I broke up. While the decision was his, and was a complete shock to me, I completely accept his decision and respect all his reasons for making it. His heart was no longer in the relationship and he didn't think it was fair on either of us to keep the relationship going if he was no longer willing to give 100%. The long distance thing has been tough on both of us, and eventually proved too much.
I am absolutely devastated, but there is no animosity between us. We had a wonderful relationship and I still love him very, very much, and we have some wonderful memories together. He was the best boyfriend I could have asked for. Neither of us regret any of the time we spent together, but it seemed the relationship had ran its course. I have spoken openly to him about how I feel, and I understand how he feels. He did what he did because he didn't want to hurt me.
I am desperately sad, but starting to accept what has happened. Erick and I are hoping to still stay in contact and eventually, hope to be friends, because we still love and care about each other very much. I'm hoping to pick myself back up tomorrow and try to get on with my life as much as possible, but I'm not sure yet how easy that will be. I have an awful lot of support from my family and wonderful friends. I don't know yet when I'll be back to blogging. I think I might need a couple of days before I'm ready to enter the blogging world again. I need some time to myself, to mourn our relationship and the future and dreams I had planned with him. As the hours go by, it does get easier, but this is going to be long journey, and this wound will take a long time to heal.
I hope I won't be gone too long. I know you all understand.
Thank you for all your support. You guys are amazing.

All my love,

Charlotte x

15 comments:

  1. Hearts :) you're so mature about this! Take as much time as you need lady!

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  2. Oh Charlotte. I'm so sorry! Take as much time as you need! I have to say though: as I read this, I really started crying. I know how much he meant to you and how tough the last few weeks have been. I'm thinking of you and I hope things go well for you in the future.

    xo Michelle

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  3. Aww I'm so sorry!! Break ups are difficult, you definitely need to take all the time you need for you and start feeling better.
    xJennaD

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  4. I'm so sorry for you! I almost had to cry reading this... Take your time, I hope you get all the support you need from your family, friends and readers.

    xx Siel

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  5. oh charlotte :( i am so very very sorry. Take all of the time you need hun to feel better!!

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear this!! I could tell (I think we all could) how crazy you were about him. Take as much time as you need, unfortunately time is the only remedy for heart ache... Much love.

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  7. I never commented on your blog but I read it almost everyday and just wanted to say that I hope you get better. Break ups are so difficult and I know what I'm talking about. Let yourself rest a lot because it's true that we need to get our moment (even if it means the moment is only one day or one week) then just move on, you'll have lots of support!

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  8. I'm so sorry Charlotte, I hope you'll be feeling better soon. I was so sad to read this and I'm really upset for you, I know how much you really loved up, but I can tell you're trying so hard to be sensible and see it from a clear perspective. I really hope you're okay, just take as much support from your friends and family as you can, and try to keep yourself busy doing the things you really love. And if it helps at all, put on a pretty outfit and remember to feel good about yourself =)
    If you need anyone to vent to or anything, you can always email me or anything.
    xxx

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  9. *HUGS* I'm so sorry! Take as much time as you need for yourself! My stb-x and I filed for divorce recently, so I know how much this sucks. :(

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  10. Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. I really am. I know this really sucks. You know we're all here for you, just an email away if you need us. I'm sending loving thoughts your way.

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  11. No no no. This can't be happening. Baby, I'm SO sorry. Honestly. I don't know what to say. I really hope you'll feel better soon, but it's not easy, I know. You know what, though? Whatever happens, happens for a reason. And I'm sure that the results will be better in the future. Many hugs and kisses for you. Take as much time as you need. We all understand, ok? Love you, Charlotte, take care xx

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  12. That's so sad and rough on one's emotions. I hope that you can cry it out as much as you can and that in time you will feel more at peace. Those long distance relationships always sound so rough on a couple. you are a wonderful person and I hope you don't blame yourself for anything. A relationship no matter what type (be it friendships or love) always need to be mended and worked on so that the feelings just grow! I hope you'll find that one day.

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  13. I am sorry Charlotte! Sending hugs your way!

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  14. I'm so sorry to hear that :( You still have my e-mail address, and I'm always happy to be an open-ear. I've gone through more than one rough breakup (one that even involved sudden homelessness at 18) so if ever you want to chat... I'm here. *hug* Cliche as it is, and hard to hear right now too, but time will help you heal.

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  15. Oh, I'm so sorry! I'm sending you a hug, and chocolate, and anything else you might need to help through this! Take as much time as you need away from blogging, dear! <3

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