One of the most difficult things to deal with when Erick and I broke up was all the memories. They seep into everything. Every little thing reminds you of them. And instead of smiling to yourself and making a mental note to remind them later, they leave you feeling empty and cold. Last week, when I went to London, I knew I couldn't go to a professional meeting in jeans and a hoodie, but looking into my wardrobe was like a dagger in my heart. The top I wore for our first date, the dress I wore to meet his parents, the dress I wore on my birthday, the dress I wore to church with his parents at Easter, the dress he bought me... the memories were overwhelming. But I told myself "no. You can't let this control you." I went down to London wearing the dress I wore to his graduation. Now, not the dress I wore to his graduation, but the dress I wore to London. I decided early on to throw myself into doing things, wearing things and involving myself in things that reminded me of him in order to make new memories and fixate less on the others. This dress, for example, is the one I wore on my birthday. It's the one I wore when Erick and I went to Minneapolis. But I decided no. This is a lovely dress that I adore. I'm not going to not wear it just because it reminds me of him. And yes, it does remind me of him. But they are lovely, lovely memories we have together, and those memories can never be tainted or forgotten.
Excuse my fringe in these pictures. I had a contact lens appointment today and was wearing my glasses for most of the afternoon and my fringe does crazy things when I wear my glasses. I almost almost did a post in my glasses but I really don't like the way I look in them. I really want some new ones but my opticians don't have any retro-inspired styles which I love, so I'm considering getting some online. Has anyone ever gotten glasses online? How was that?
Oh also, it was super-windy when I took these photos, and rained straight after (why am I wearing a cardigan in August?!). Leading to classics like this...
Yeah. I know. I'm so hot. Anyway, I'm off for dinner with my parents and then to my friends' house for a girly night. Back to the grind tomorrow- I have work Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. And probably Saturday and Sunday. Alas, I like money.
Have a great day!!