It's not like I was lost for a purpose
I can't be the only blogger who wears something all day, feels unsure about it somewhat, and then right before they taken photos they decide to complete change the outfit. About half an hour ago I was wearing a denim jacket and rust knee socks. In my head, this had worked just great, in reality there just wasn't enough brown in the top half of my outfit to tie it in. So I swapped into black tights (my knees still look like they've been smashed with a hammer) and a leather jacket, but I'm still not wild about this outfit. I feel like it's just a bit too...simple.
I had to be surgically removed from my orange skirt this morning. I just love it. I would never have thought I would get so much wear from an orange skirt. I am really bad at avoiding buying "trendy" pieces. I love orange right now but I'm sure I won't feel the same way about it this time next year!! The rust-coloured tights and brown shoes combination I initially wore this morning would have looked great with my orange skirt, but after 7 days of 30 for 30, I've already worn it 3 times so I really need to play with the other pieces I included in my items!! Plus, it really needs a wash and an iron!!
Wish I had more interesting things to report, but today has been a pretty laid back day of writing and sorting things out. I would like to say congratulations to all my friends who got their degree results today!! They all did amazingly well and I am so proud of them!! It kinda puts me on edge for my results next year. Two of my friends got Firsts and it's kinda inspired me to work really hard next year because it is possible. My friend Mike wrote a book last year called How to Get a First and sent me a free copy, so I've been reading that today to inspire me. His book is great. It's not a miracle cure, but it's all about time management (or task management) and inspiring advice.
I really, really miss America today and I don't know why. Two weeks back at home and I'm finally realising that this is it. I'm home for good. I miss my friends, I miss my life and I miss my boyfriend. It's awful. I just feel so lost and restless and confused. The stress of sorting out how I'm going to get to work without a car is really building too. I work 45 minutes away in the car, so getting there by public transport is tricky and is going to take much, much longer than it would normally. But I know, I know, I'm alive. My accident could have been so much work. This is merely an inconvenience. But it's hard. It's hard when it's just another reason why I was back in America. Back in a city where I didn't need a car to get around. Back where if I needed to go anywhere, my amazing boyfriend would always take me. Back where I had a life and friends and love and didn't feel so lost and confused and alone. Oh I know I shouldn't be moaning, and I'm done so well so far, but sometimes it just comes over me like a huge wave and I just want to cry. But I've learnt by now that crying doesn't help at all.
top- New Look
leather jacket- H&M
I'm working all day tomorrow (12-10pm, urgh!!) and Sunday I have my cousin's First Communion, but I'll try to update on Sunday evening. Have a wonderful weekend!!