Tuesday, 7 December 2010
Wishing Your Life Away
Last night, in a stressful essay-induced fit I bemoaned, I wish I was 22nd December.
Okay, I was stressed and to some extent I do stand by that remark.
But I wish I didn't.
My Dad always tells me "not to wish your life away" and I know what he means.
Some days just feel like filler, waiting for the future, waiting for something to happen.
But we are living in the future. We are living in the times that our past self was waiting for.
Of course, I don't recall many times that I woke up thinking "woop! one more day down, come on final's week!!", but at the same time, I waited and planned for years for my year abroad.
Okay, having 5 assignments and 4 finals coming up, along with the insane number of articles I have agreed to write over the next few weeks is hardly fun fodder. In fact, I hate it and wish it was all over.
But life is for living, right? It's not all rainbows.
I wanted to get a degree, I wanted to come to America, so I have to deal with the rain, right?
But it's hard. It's hard to live in the moment when I'm so stressed and just excited to get back home. But I know that wishing it was the future won't help. Haven't you see 13 Going on 30? (If you haven't, you should!)
I do wish it was 22nd December, but I'm sure I'll have a great time over these next few weeks and I despite the hard work I have to do, I can't waste this time wishing I was back home.
The fact is, I'm only here for a year, and of course, it wasn't idyllic and perfect, but it's like. And I did what I wanted to do.
So now I guess I have to stay focuses, stay in the moment, and don't let life run by without me.
Because in a year's time I don't want to have any regrets about my year abroad.
I'm going to appreciate all the time that I have left, even if it means just being happy that I have 11 days until my first exam!!
Life is what happens while you're making other plans, right?